Nice poem dear,
hope everything is fine :]

<3333

<3

thank you....

x syn x

You can't say that was a bad poem, I loved it. Take care.

Chad

allow me to tell you there is far too much to explain, and too little of time. if you are wishing to know what i do, go out and buy a book called 'the black arts' by richard cavendish. in that book it will tell you everything you are asking me. it is an amazing book and it will bring you to much understanding. it will make you think in ways you didnt see before. to be a god here on earth, you must conquer the universe. not in the actual sense of destroying everything, but as ive said *knowledge is key*... it is your way to becoming a "god"... you must understand everything in the universe to become it.

and i am not a god, nor goddess. i am simply a servant to a God of my own. yes Malum and i share the same beliefs although is differ slightly because he is far more advance than i am. he is smarter by a long shot than i am as well. he is the one who has taught me alot, not exactly of this religion, but of life altogether. he was the one who laid this religion out to me and showed me it exists. and for once i fit in.  i am not a seperate from other humans, but in ways i am. i live and breathe as everyone else, but my lifestyle differs greatly than one can think. i may just be your average teen to you but because  i havent revealed much of myself personally, i suppose you will never know what else is to me. and i apologize for that, but i struggle with trust...

'do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law' is actually a quoting from the religion. Aleister Crowley is the man i am learning of at this moment. he is very much interesting and i am surprised that you do not already know of him. he is a great deal in 'satanism' for he was known as the 'wickedest man on earth'; and was called 'the Beast'. and i am not trying to correct you but even gods too can fail. look at all the gods and goddess' myths. some were murdered by other gods therefore meaning they had failed. and yes it is of free will, because i don believe anyone should have to live by a book.

i cant say i behave as a god because i am not one, i am just learning of one. i dont believe a God should be a slave to my whims, as a servant it should be just the opposite.. and youre right. most people dont even know the meaning of God or what he is to stand for. they know nothing but lines in a bible and that will not be the key for access to "heaven". one thing Malum has showed me is that if i want to be important, i have to mae an effort. if i want to be heard, i cant sit in a corner and be silent. if i want to make something of myself i have to speak and react. Malum has not outright told me of things i should and shouldnt actually do whn it comes to religion, in fact he has allowed me to just be free with it, learn as i want. but he is the reason i dont fear to speak, to have people outraged at me. and after all, i cant just sit around and watch what i love be destroyed until it is gone. they tried taking away my religion once, i will be damned if they do it again. (and i dont doubt that)

Malum shows me alot. when it comes to "free will" he allows me to do things that others wouldnt accept. reason being why i care for him much and see him to be my personal God. there are several reasons that i could give you as to why he is, but that would take too much time and space. and you are free to do anything. i know your beliefs differ than mine, but were you to wish to take up suicide that is of your choice, and no others. i wouldnt recommend jumping off a cliff but i think jumping off a church would be fun.. or possibly pushing someone..  just joking... sometimes you dont need to control nature in order to have free will, i think if you can control yourself then you will feel your "free will" kicking in. and well honestly people can create their own worlds. it doesnt always have to be physical. im just curious though, when you actual grief over something, or possiblyget lost in thought, dont you ever realize you are taking yourself to a mental world? a world in your head where you go to get away...? differ worlds are existant, you just have to know how to get there.

um.. how do you know when you are a god?.. hmm, honestly i cant tell you because like i said, i am not that of a god.. i am just a servant to the gorgeous Malum. all i can really tell you is to get that book and read it for yourself. it has everything in it you would need.


"I'm just curious, where do you get your rules and beliefs from? How do you know what to believe? Do you and Malum believe the same things? " as i said, we share much. in ways yeah we differ alot. im still learning and i know in the future he will teach me more. belief is sort of a hard thing to go by as in some way, one person will always differ from another. as for my rules, well, i basically just follow what Malum allows and that is a wide variety. he lets me speak, act freely and simply exist. the only true rule i can give you is that he will not allow me to stop trying. which i must say i love him for, because in all realities someday it will make me stronger and it will help me learn so much more and how to conquer so much more. sometimes beinga follower helps alot.

i too believe one day this world will be destroyed. im not really meaning this in an offensive way but were i to ever harm someone,it will probably be a christian. those f***ing people get so deep in my skin, i feel like i lose grip on reality and just want to rip their f***ing faces off to shut the up. i cant honestly say that i have all the answers you are looking for, i may actually ask Malum of your question.. " Let's say that the end of humanity comes, so there is no more reincarnation..." what happens to me is i die.. just like everyone else. i will ask him of it and then get back to you. like i said before his IQ is outrageous, where mine.. not so bright.. lol. i think one day the world will be destroyed and we will all some how travel to another planet, possibly. i believe there is other worlds out there, we are just unsure of how to reach them.

a soul is just an energy source, who f***ing knows what will happen. either way, the day we all die, i must admit sounds fun and exciting. id like to see what my death is honestly. but that may just be me.

x gnosis x

Korinaaa,
I never really believed much about 666. I think people are generally just into these sorts of things because they cause that scare fest.
I really enjoyed the poem. i loved the second stanza.
And this is my favourite song from Sarah.
Great entry!
Rana.
=)

see thats the thing is, i dont believe that we bcome gods after we die... we become gods NOW... we just have to learn how to be first. and i dont mean that by dying...

i actually hate the mormon religion for some reason. i dont have anything against it, i just think its a tad bit on the ridiculous side. *shrugs* dont know why.  i hate the people that come to my front door. (im not saying they are always mormon or anything) but its fun to f*** with them... i used to have this fake satanist pamplet and when they would try to offer one to me or their church, i would offer them one of mine for my church.... i used to tell them that they could get initiated into my 'cult' just by doing a simple task of baby bashing.... ( where you go to a hospital, take a newborn by the feet and crack their heads on the floor)... yeah, that was just a joke but they stopped coming to my door after that.  cuz im cool like that.

x gnosis x

[xSynXGnosisx]

You're welcome. By the way, where did you come up with the title? It woudn't have anything to do with Fallen by Evanescence would it? Take care.

Chad

Good poem Korina. Talk to you soon.

Chad

Korina,

Thanks for your comment. Your poem just about summed up my entire elementary school experience. I was the nobody everybody noticed, but in a bad way. Take care.

Chad

  Hello there Korina,
I always enjoy hearing from you, and sorry I haven't been around much lately but I was gone and didn't have a computer until just now. I'm glad you liked my last entry, and that you knew what it was all about. You are much closer to God than you ever give yourself credit for.......
  You take care, and I'll be seeing you........Michael

(((((((((((((Korina)))))))))) Thank YOU for the note and for knowing that I will always make it through!

  Your poem is very moving!

   I often pray for you to FEEL my love and His!

   Know that I am always here and will always love you dearly!  You have been a wonderful sister to me..and you are appreciated more than you know!

 Have a Blessed day!

  I love you!,

      Jewel

This is sad and beautiful as always
i hope you feeling good dear.
lovee youuu

dare i ask you sweet one, why do you feel like a dumbass coming to my diary? if i make you feel that way im sorry as its not done on purpose. i think there is alot between you and i that we can relate to.. our greatest feature so far is Manson. honestly something i would like to say to you is, if there is something you are wishing to say, just outright say it. you are one of the people that i can be understanding with in all ways and honestly, you are one of the very few people i can stand. i tend to do the same thing sometimes...there are things i want to say, but not only do the words not sound good enough but i talk myself out of it. next time, do NOT hesitate to say what you want. i like honest people.

"I will say this- you inspire me" well thank you. that means much to me as you are the first person to say that... i would enjoy if you were to share of your thoughts on the "beast"... i could go all day of what i think of it

"(Whenever I check on my faves, you are the first one that I look at and if you've updated, I look at your latest entry first.) " i think that is really cool that yo do so... thank you. most people find me to be a jackass and ignorant because i dont believe their god is there. talking with you means alot... and no, i cant read you because i feel that no two people whom are close to comparison can read one another until they can read themselves...reading myself is like a long walk in hell, im lost and dont know which way to go. religion is what has connected me to everything i love as well as everything i hate. (reason why i said everything is balanced between right and wrong, good and evil)

i still see you to be the amazing sweet women i saw when i first met you... well honestly, i was a pain in the ass, but after talking with you... i do have truly wonderful thoughts of you.  your christians beliefs will not cause me to look down on you, only ones actions could do so, not the belief. ignorance is the main key for me to hate someone... and you are not even close. i do visit your diary alot still, im just so f***ing busy with everything i hardly have time to comment all the people that comment me. here soon though, i will have plenty of time and will be free to write to you once more.i understand everything you say of religion... about believing in God and all.... sometimes i wish to create another religion... one where people can just simply be. people struggle so much to follow the bible. those who do are just what the bible doesnt want them to be, those who cant end up giving up.... i would like answers to my life but yet i dont want a f***ing book to follow. you shouldnt try to fit in with them because although you differ from me, i think you fit with me and many like me as well. sometimes who you fit with differ... and sometimes thats all you need. i cant say i enjoy christianity because i am far from enjoying it, but that doesnt mean i shut peole away because they do.

honestly with Marilyn... i was sort of ignorant back then. i didnt know muc and i really was on the line of worshipping the christian devil. i truly thought Marilyn was the anit-christ and i loved it. being older i see there is more to religions than what is laid out to people... knowing that now, yeah i feel closer to him than i ever have before. back then, i was young and far off. i didnt talk much of christianity with him, i just met him... talked alittle, litened to the band goof and then had to leave. i think even if Manson came out and said he believes in a god, id still be a follower. we are all human and people seem to forget that but as Malum has mentioned to me... Knowledge is key. knowledge can get you far and you learn so much... i can go into great detail of it, but i will spare your diary... lol..

youre right. you and Manson do seem to be much alike... but unfortunately, i think i recall manson saying at one time he enjoy people who are opposite. i dont know for sure if he will still say that to this day, but sometimes even i think Manson no longer knows what he wants. he started as a teenager who hought he knew everything. yeah he was a smart sob... but living a certain life fter awhile can really damage you. i think that is something he over looked. if he wanted to change his beliefs, he would feel pressure, maybe to the point of suicide because he would lose a great deal of his fans. its saddening yeah, but i think it may be best if Manson were to change his beliefs then he would see who is a true follower and whom is not. life is about games.... whether anyone wants to believe it or not, everyone plays game sometime to get what they want... no one wants to admit it though and im sorry to be offensive but even those of christianity played games. they nearly destroyed wiccan and pagan( which are basically the same) religions just because they created the "you are a sin, you bow down to a god and one god only" game.. people can use games to make things better.. or destroy things. Manson fits greatly in this category.. this is why i favor him so much.

and yeah i must say Dita was a jackass for leaving Manson. sheexpected him to just coming run after her, but apparntly she doesnt know Manson well enough. he is a strong man. mentally, even physically. yeah im sure he was heart broken because love does that to you, but fact is he knows he is able to stand on his own feet, whether he is alright... or hurt. another favorite quality of Manson. this also happens to be muc of the reason i see Malum to be my personal God. he is strong in ways others can not understand. he can take things no other can... not even Manson. you wont beleive what the human body can handle... and Malum does just that. its difficult and far too complicated to explain, but trust when i say... there are those out there in the world who were meant to be leaders... and then you have us, who were meant to be followers. i actually enjoy being a follower.

btw.. i think Dita von sounds like a guy...  she has a deep voice for such a beautiful women... i thought shed have a cutsey tiny voice but i guess when you shine in something, another of your features has to dull... lol... 
 

and i must say THANK YOU! he has lost much of himself in his most recent entries. he is not the same Manson he was. but like i said everyone grows... things change. i hope like f***ing hell its not Evan.. something i would like to ask Manson is... if he had a choice to die with evan or his fans... who would he prefer to die with? i know he may choose evan, but i think the best way to die would be with your fans.. thats just me though.. id ike to die with a huge group of people that way i wont go to hell alone..... some christian sense of humor there for ya..

 and i think if the world would just give him a chance, he wouldnt have to change. but of course we all know none of that would happen. it would all be a f***ing dream...  


"Anyway...I have rambled on enough. You inspire me, so don't be surprised or alarmed if my entries are of the same or similar topics as yours are." actually i think that is really intersting that you would do so... there are so many people who would rather talk sh*t on me and how i write than write of it from heir own thoughts and views.. another reaason i find i can stand you more than any here at mdd.. you are very much intelligent. and although you say you are obsolete, i think you have more feeling of the world that  i do. i can feel everything mentally, not so much physically but i can still feel. i think that puts me in a lower standard than you...

it is easy to scare a christian. thats why i do it so much, i f***ing love it...  no offense yet again, but i love to laugh. i love to be happy and i love having self amusement. christians are usually my target because they havethe funniest reactions to things... i enjoy your entries.. i lve the fact that you write them and i love how you write them. basically if someone came to me on mdd and asked me where would the intelligence be located i would hav to direct them to your diary before  would ever point out mine or someon elses. dont get me wrong, im not saying that my entries are intelligent. i usually write them as a joke because i find it humorous but i enjoy your writings. there are so many people who try to write... (look at all the poems on mdd) to me, they suck. because they have no deeper knowledge than the ones yours do.

i will infact accept you how you are.. this is of what people do not see of me. they see my hate, my humor through humiliation and torment... but they dont see im human too. i do have a heart. yeah so sometimes i only prefer it to just be Malum, but every once in awhile someone else wonders in by accident.. i dont care of your religion, i understand your thoughts.... but that doesnt mean im gonna shut you away. im not offended of your writings. as ive said i enjoy them. i like seeing what another human life form sees and knows. honestly that is where i learn alot. by listening to others and taking what they saw and processing it into my own thoughts. there is much i dont agree with but when someone makes a good point, it cant be shut away. no matter who says it, its taken into consideratation..

i cant say that i am wanting to just drop my religion for christianity, but imalways up for learning something new. i cant see myself turning back to christianity but knowledge never hurt anyone. i will of course travel to your diary, i apologize for lately. ive been busy and have not been ignoring anyone on purpose.

i really would like for you to just feel free to tell me anything and i mean ANYTHING! id hate to do to you what i have to do to others and beat you with a paddle board ... (long story) . i enjoyed your comment and i thank you for taking the time in writing to me. you are the only one who actually cares to share things with me instead of just to say HI and then disappear for weeks. its greatly appreciated and you are always welcome in my diary. trust me, if i had a hate for you, youd seriously know it. but i am welcoming you with everything. dont hold your words backto me, even if they are out of anger... i know what its like to be human, i understand more than what many may think.... so please feel free.

x gnosis x

ps... and keep in mind, im alwaysup for learning something new.. always. and i like the picture that says not good enough.. i have alot to say of that but i will save it and spare your diary...

Thanks im glad you liked the poem!!!

and Im sure you can write great poetry. the key is to try to write poems that are real and honest. When I was younger I tried to just sit there and make up things and made them rhyme and what not. (I always ended up with a bunch of cheesy poems that were just ok. then I realized not every poems has to rhyme and all that.) So one day I sat and I just wrote something that came to me that was real and meant something to me and it was really good after that. Just keep working with it, practice makes perfect.

Im sure you can do it!!!

(((((((((((Korina)))))))))))) No matter what you believe or what you don't believe , I totally LOVE and ACCEPT YOU!  You're like a sister to me!

    Thanks for letting me know that you were thinking of me!

   Have a blessed day!,

         Jewel 

(((((Korina))))))

its been so long,how are youu?
true,i really liked the poem,its so deep,
haha have fun cleaning the bathroom,
well im not sure im gonna
be a good wife since i hate cleaning the housee :P

missing you dear.
Takecare

i feel i must agree with you but either way how i see it, we will be extinct one way or another... it doesnt really matter how. i dont believe daemons are going to rise from the ground and kill us although that woul be an awesome way to die... i just know for sure, this world has gone to sh*t and nothing is going to stop until our breathing does.

its something to think about... how i see it though, within the next few years if this world gets any worse, i may just have to start planning my own death because this sh*t, i wouldnt be able to take. i love causing grief and trouble out of pure fun,but that day will give true meaning to hell on earth.

x gnosis x

It's difficult for me to grasp how it could be not to feel anything for such a long period of time. My heart goes out to you.

see there is nothing to think about for me. youre right i dont believe n god, or satan. but fact is the apocalypse to me is battle between human kind. we are going to put our own damn selves to extintion. terms that go by the bible differ than what the terms mean to me. apocalypse is just some bullsh*t word the bible uses to scare christians. to me, it is a battle between one another.... a battle that will lead to much pain,suffering, death, hatred, murder, everything a human can fear.

x gnosis x

Love the poem. It rocks.

-Jovonnah Rabbit

gotta love steak and  shakes chilli..lol

I wish I had steak tonight but oh well most likely something else

loved all your poems they all make me think and remind me of stuff Ive been thru with him

Sometimes I wish I were a really bitchy mean person  grrr

hugs

I was never good in cooking or cleaning,but i like to cook ! maybe someday when i havemy own family i will be more serious about it.
I liked the second poem alot,i also sometimes can relate to what you write,Great blessing ,
I will go back now to listen to the song again,i like this kind of songs.

Much lovee

I feel like I can relate to most of those so well....your personal meanings behind them are probably a lot different from the way I'm relating them to my life, but I still feel the emotions so strongly. You are so talented. :)
I'm glad things seem to be going well with Eric. Good luck with cleaning...eww, I can't even stand cleaning my room. I'm going to be terrible when I have my own house.
And yeah, he's a year older than me; he graduated this past year.

Hi Korina,

I read your poems and I wish I were as talented as you. But I'm not so, the world spins on. But I do have this one poem...and I wanted to see what you think? It was written a lonnngg time ago and it's probably gonna be really stupid to you but I always want feedback.

here it is!

Lets just touch.
For just one night.
No more talking.
Turn out the light.
Just make me forget.
Push him out of my mind.
Make your finger tips overshadow his lies.
Let's not use words.
Make me lose my mind.
Make me feel.
For I haven't felt in so long.
It doesn't have to mean a thing.
In the morning you can be gone.
You don't have to whisper I love you.
Or sing a love song.
Just make me shudder.
And bring me back.
Make me alive.
Breathe the breath in me I've lacked.
Don't talk about emotions.
Or the sorrow I have held.
Make my eyes light up.
They've been dark for so long.
Make eveything sharper.
Make the dullness fade away.
Caress me like I'm magic.
Steal my breath away.
For this one night don't
make me sit here alone.
Just pretend for just one second.
I'm not broken.
That I'm whole.

lovely poems

I love the rain and I wish it rained here more it hardly ever does

tight hugs

Korina,

Thanks for your comment. Another good poem from you. Take care.

Chad

((((((((((((Korina))))))))) Thank YOU for the note, the support and the love!  You are very welcome for the prayers.

  Thank YOU for letting me know how you are...

     Glad that Eric behaved!

      Glad that you are enjoying this time of year!

   I love you tons!,

        Jewel

The language of loveee,i loved this entry.
oh i wish it rains here,i miss the winter so bad :(
yess fall is on the way :D where do you live?
&&you should make a book with all those amazing poems.

loveyou

yes i believe i would come right back to earth and no i dont remember my past lives, but i dont have things from them that have carried on with me. (for example, why im so clingy to Malum... i believe i lived without him one lifetime and that explains why im clingy to him) . . . . you may not remember a past life but what you learn sticks with you, what you experience stays with you...

[xSynXGnosisx]

you are such a sweet person and honestly ive never had anyone say theyve wanted to hold me in their arms so to be more honest, i dont know how to react to that. i thank you though. and yes suicide does take courage but ive been so close to it these past few days its unbelievable. i just want to cause pain either to myself or to another. days get hard and i cant stand them, the night actually feels descent to me because i can ... well actually lets not get into that.

but im sorry of your brother. i had a friend who committed suicide. and that is something you just cant forget. i do at times wonder what they were feeling or thinking. sometimes going into deep thought leads to a death or your own.. sometimes its a scary feeling to have.

i think im ready to know what my next life holds... but i dont like the thought of knowing, i will just come back to earth.

x syn x

 sweetgirl89 is this bitch that has a diary here on mdd, shes a straight bitch seriously. she had reported me about a million times to admin for no f***ing reason... shes stupid so im trying to piss her off the most i can..  i know, its prolly not as funny to you as it is to me.

and thank you for your kind comment. so far ive only had one girl say i was ugly. (stacy0543 or something like that) i dont try to dress like manson, but black is within my blood and nature. i love it and cant help myself. i must wear it and sometimes i still dream of being mansons daughter. but lately ive just wished for death so all the hurt will go away.

its good to know that eric hasnt gotten into too much trouble. to be honest, he sounds like me.. well, when i was in school. i used to do the same thing. i didnt care what it took, i found anything i could to disagree with the teacher and prove the teacher to be wrong.. you may never know, your boy may actually be smarter than some of those teachers... kids these days truly are intelligent in ways youd never guess and your boy sounds smart.

x syn x

Korina,

I know I've told you this before, but you should really consider publishing your poems. I think they'd sell. Talk to you soon.

Chad

thank you but that would be nice. mansons too good looking though.

how are you doing? i havent heard from you in awhile...

x syn x

Good poem Korina.......keep it up

Chad

((((((((korina))))))))))

scary entry :P  i LOVE horror movies :)
and i like all your entriess alott,and this one i smy fav. lloll what movie is it ?

The pic of the big breasted girl is from a movie called 13 Ghosts..cool pic huh and yes she looks about to burst lmao

great poem

havent heard from you in a while I hope that you are not mad at me or anything

take care

Whoa, those pics are CREEPY! lol, but I like the poem! Glad you feel good today! I hope he straightens up too. Take care,

- Chris

beautiful poetry

that song is one of my all time faves it reminds me of my son

I hope your son  adjusts to his new environment and his meltdowns stop

hugs

I'm beginning to run out of things to say. You're writing is better each time. Whether or not you are attractive is a matter of opinion, one that not everyone will share with your opinion of yourself. I hope Eric straightens out. Take care.

Chad

yeah i had disappeared for awhile. didnt think anyone would notice. i was going to stop with MDD but it seems there is just too much stupidity going on so i thought it would bring me much amusement for the time being.

-Gnosis-

I love this poem. Of course, I love all of your work, but this one in particular was pretty awesome. It's so...relatable. [[I'm not sure if that's a word or not, but you get what I mean. :)]]

Aww, I'm sorry Eric's misbehaving. I know lots of preteen kids that have attitude problems and act like they're smarter than their elders. I'm sure it's just a phase, but I hope he gets out of it soon and gets to stay at his magnet school.

I like the pics and the poem. I hope Eric starts behaving at school. That would really suck if he got kicked out... TTYL,

- Chris

I totally related to this poem... it actually almost made me cry. That makes me feel a little pathetic but I just went through something pretty similar. Great Poem!

Beautiful poem Korina, you continue to outdo yourself. Take care.

Chad

That's such a nice poem. :)
For some reason, it sounds like lyrics to a song. I can almost hear the music in my head. You're really good at this. :)

(((((((((((((((((Korina)))))))))))))) BEAUTIFUL Poem! It's such a Blessing that you are feeling grateful to and for your husband...Did you share the poem with him?

     I hope that you are feeling better...I do think that getting up and getting busy helps our brain-chemicals to get going...So I am wishing you the best with that and cheering you on!

   Sending you MUCH LOVE!,

            Jewel

OMG.. korina thankyou so so much,
i LOVED it, its so true and you are amazing with words.
Mike is one lucky man , God bless you both.
im glad that eric finally liked his new school

loveyou so much

Kisses&hugs

cute poem

hugs

You're a good writer Korina.......talk to you soon.

Chad

.((((((((((Korina)))))))))) I LOVED this poem! One of my favorites!

   I wonder how you are and what you're up to...

   I love you!,

      Jewel 

OMG i love reading all your poems, bee-u-tifull

loveeeeee it!!!!!

hugs

Good poem Korina...........Thanks for your comment. Take care.

Chad

I knew he would liek school

yay

loving your poem

tons of love

c

I like that you wrote a poem about what you're going through, and I LOVED it! I love most of your poems, lol.

I'm glad Eric said he likes school, you knew he did! Take care,

- Chris

Oh then may god bless him and keep him safe.
haha thats an improvement to admit that he likes school,
he's in the same age as my brother,
korina this is another beautiful poem,keep it on dear.

I love the poem and the song, just the overall feeling you get from it.  Really nice :)

~Tons of love

lovely poem. <3 of course. *looks at you with fond eyes*

what the heck is steak and shake??? surely steaks and shakaes don't go together well!!
:Z
uh-ohhh.

:] ugh, i hate cleaning the house too. who does like it? 0.o

much love.
<3 Shannon

great poem

We all want someone  to be super inlove with us

that for me is top on my list

tight hugs

I LOVED the poem. It was simple, but SO good. I like it when they rhyme too.... IDK why.

I'm glad this school is better. Every kid says they hate school, sometimes I say it too!

Take care,

- Chris

amazing poem<3

&&thankyouuu<333 :DDD i'm glad you like it!!

tellmexwherexarexyou<333